Cope to Hope Day 7: Waiting
Dear Friends,
The last month and a half of this pregnancy I've been suffering with migraines- pretty frequently, about twice a day. There were days I would drive home from work with one and I would have to press my fingers on my forehead to see enough to drive- scared, because Reagan was in the back and I didn't want to hurt her if we got in an accident. They are painful and triggered by the light/noise and apparently my low iron. So, I take some pills now and I wear prescription sunglasses- even when I teach- to help me cope with them at work and home.
For a month and a half, I have been going through days of suffering with pockets of relief. At first, I would just wait for my small moments of relief. Then, I aimed a little higher and waited for the day I could only take one pill. Now, as of today, I worked my first full day without the sunglasses and it felt really good- not the wait, but the progress.
Friends, that's what I imagine our journey of waiting for Sabrina will feel like for a long time- days of suffering with pockets of relief.
I feel the Lord gifted me with this season of migraines to prepare me for my season of waiting on Sabrina. As she still lies unconscious- it pains me everyday. However, I get pockets of relief when I think a memory of her, do something or go somewhere that reminds me of her, or hear an update. And, that's a great start. That's progress.
In a Crystal- controlled world, Sabrina would have been awake by now. I would have visited her in the flesh already, showered her with gifts and love, and we would have been making/praying out her recovery plan for the summer. But, friends, obviously, I have no control over this world and neither do you.
I trust God's timing and I trust His purpose in ALL of this for Sabrina and ALL our lives. I don't have a clear vision of pacing or progress from here on out. But, I will celebrate with you, Sabrina, and her family along the way- whatever little victories look like.
Sabrina, you are a catalyst of God's plan for my life and all our lives. For that, I am eternally grateful. Waiting for you has been hard but we can keep waiting... we love you.
Love you. Always,
Crystal
The last month and a half of this pregnancy I've been suffering with migraines- pretty frequently, about twice a day. There were days I would drive home from work with one and I would have to press my fingers on my forehead to see enough to drive- scared, because Reagan was in the back and I didn't want to hurt her if we got in an accident. They are painful and triggered by the light/noise and apparently my low iron. So, I take some pills now and I wear prescription sunglasses- even when I teach- to help me cope with them at work and home.
For a month and a half, I have been going through days of suffering with pockets of relief. At first, I would just wait for my small moments of relief. Then, I aimed a little higher and waited for the day I could only take one pill. Now, as of today, I worked my first full day without the sunglasses and it felt really good- not the wait, but the progress.
Friends, that's what I imagine our journey of waiting for Sabrina will feel like for a long time- days of suffering with pockets of relief.
I feel the Lord gifted me with this season of migraines to prepare me for my season of waiting on Sabrina. As she still lies unconscious- it pains me everyday. However, I get pockets of relief when I think a memory of her, do something or go somewhere that reminds me of her, or hear an update. And, that's a great start. That's progress.
In a Crystal- controlled world, Sabrina would have been awake by now. I would have visited her in the flesh already, showered her with gifts and love, and we would have been making/praying out her recovery plan for the summer. But, friends, obviously, I have no control over this world and neither do you.
I trust God's timing and I trust His purpose in ALL of this for Sabrina and ALL our lives. I don't have a clear vision of pacing or progress from here on out. But, I will celebrate with you, Sabrina, and her family along the way- whatever little victories look like.
Sabrina, you are a catalyst of God's plan for my life and all our lives. For that, I am eternally grateful. Waiting for you has been hard but we can keep waiting... we love you.
Love you. Always,
Crystal
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