I AM SMART- Why I'm the Last to Know
Hello Friends-
It's been quite a summer and I'm exhausted. Haha. I'm a mother of four small children- I've been tired for years! But, honestly, I really enjoyed this summer and worked my butt off on bettering my self from the inside out.
It's been quite a summer and I'm exhausted. Haha. I'm a mother of four small children- I've been tired for years! But, honestly, I really enjoyed this summer and worked my butt off on bettering my self from the inside out.
I. matter.
I'm. smart.
I. do. have. things. to offer. and. share. with. the world.
This summer, I learned that about myself.
How. grateful. I. am. for. such. appreciation. of. my. own. life.
It's been a long journey full of insecurities. But after 35 years of it, I'm done with that life. I always felt like I wasn't smart enough for this world. There was always something out there that I just never experienced or didn't know much about. There were always people around me that made me feel less than because of that.
Sometimes, it wasn't even malicious or intentional. It was just the fact that I came from a different culture and economic background that didn't allow for such experiences. That's just how it is.
Differences naturally set you apart.
It's your choice to make the best of it.
Even after the master's degree, I didn't feel any better. I always have had a heart to teach in Title One schools- secretly, in those early years of teaching- I thought it was because I knew I was at least smart enough to teach the struggling readers. Now, I realize that I have the HEART and DRIVE to survive this hard work and still raise an awesome family. Actually, mothering my kids whose ages are literally back to back (5, 3, 2, and 9 months) taught me so much on what's developmentally appropriate practice for teaching little people at this current time.
Reagan, Reggie, Wyatt, and Jude- I'm so incredibly humbled and privileged to be your mom and learn from you.
Although I've been reading A LOT more than usual since I became a Christian and returned back to work, I hated reading growing up. Every year, I was in the lowest reading group and I always pronounced words wrong. Though my parents spoke English at home, it was their second language and they always had an accent too. My family was bred to work. So, in the few moments when we weren't working, we were watching TV. We weren't the chatty kind of family, but we loved to eat around the table as a family. That was a main priority growing up in our house. Sitting at the table showed respect and appreciation for each other.
That's why I am so SMART- my ultimate goal in life is to respect and appreciate all people- including myself.
It's been a long journey full of insecurities. But after 35 years of it, I'm done with that life. I always felt like I wasn't smart enough for this world. There was always something out there that I just never experienced or didn't know much about. There were always people around me that made me feel less than because of that.
Sometimes, it wasn't even malicious or intentional. It was just the fact that I came from a different culture and economic background that didn't allow for such experiences. That's just how it is.
Differences naturally set you apart.
It's your choice to make the best of it.
Even after the master's degree, I didn't feel any better. I always have had a heart to teach in Title One schools- secretly, in those early years of teaching- I thought it was because I knew I was at least smart enough to teach the struggling readers. Now, I realize that I have the HEART and DRIVE to survive this hard work and still raise an awesome family. Actually, mothering my kids whose ages are literally back to back (5, 3, 2, and 9 months) taught me so much on what's developmentally appropriate practice for teaching little people at this current time.
Reagan, Reggie, Wyatt, and Jude- I'm so incredibly humbled and privileged to be your mom and learn from you.
Although I've been reading A LOT more than usual since I became a Christian and returned back to work, I hated reading growing up. Every year, I was in the lowest reading group and I always pronounced words wrong. Though my parents spoke English at home, it was their second language and they always had an accent too. My family was bred to work. So, in the few moments when we weren't working, we were watching TV. We weren't the chatty kind of family, but we loved to eat around the table as a family. That was a main priority growing up in our house. Sitting at the table showed respect and appreciation for each other.
That's why I am so SMART- my ultimate goal in life is to respect and appreciate all people- including myself.
You see me in this picture. Well, this is my comfort zone- in the background.
I like to stay behind the scenes watching and loving from afar- guiding and walking alongside people as supporter or cheerleader. Giving gifts, prayers, or encouragements to build up anyone I can help.
Well, between starting this blog this summer and another new adventure I'm embarking this fall, I know God's got plans for me in a more public arena.
I maybe super uncomfortable, but I finally think I'm SMART enough to try anyways.
Praying and hoping I can inspire and touch lives on a grander scale.
Thanks for reading!
With Love. Always,
Crystal
I maybe super uncomfortable, but I finally think I'm SMART enough to try anyways.
Praying and hoping I can inspire and touch lives on a grander scale.
Thanks for reading!
With Love. Always,
Crystal
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