Entertainment vs. Engagement - Leaving 2019 Behind Me

Dear Readers-
This marks my last post in 2019...

I. still. have. so. much. left. unfinished. and unknown.

Tis is life... right?!?!

Year after year- I keep having new beginnings... some come to a completion, but many just get started  and overtime fizzle away.

Well, in 2020, I hope my endeavors of writing my book, deepening my relationship with my husband, and self-care continue on to completion or at least maintain it's rhythm of change in my life.

This. girl. continues. to. dream. BIG.

I've been reflecting a lot on what has robbed me of life and love in the past and distracted my heart from what's important to me.

 It comes down to this...

ENTERTAINMENT.

If you want to know where all our wealth, time, and money is spent, try entertainment.

When things get stressed or work gets hard, I want instant gratification.

When I feel lonely, confused, or sad, I want be amused and have a little fun.

When I am bored and don't want to do what I need to do, I  want something mindless to pass the time.

My black hole of my past has been-  Entertainment.

It's too easy to be sucked into.

It's too distracting and empty to give it all my life.

So, in 2019, I am recognizing this weakness and leaving that old habit behind me.

This new year and new decade I am. taking. a. vow. to ENGAGE. in. the. life. that. is put. in. front. of me.

When things get hard or unknown, I will just have to slow it down- pray, connect, and seek guidance from the Holy Spirit on next steps.

I want to make meaningful connections with what's going on IN my life and I want to praise and thank the Lord more through it.

I don't just want to live life out-

I want to love it and let nothing steal my joy in it.

Dear Lord,

Give me the courage to continue to do Your Will.

Humble my heart to fully engage in the life YOU put before me.

Help me to serve YOU well.

Happy New Year!

With Love. Always,

Crystal