Finishing 2020: Silent Rock Climbing

 Dear Readers,

My 2020 is coming to a close and it's been a weird and quite turbulent year- but, I'm still thankful for it.

 I intentionally stayed away from the blog- waiting for the right words to write... and here they are-

I choose silent rock climbing.

The noise of changes, injustices, anger, and fear are everywhere.

But, I choose to be silent.

Silent in terms of not expressing aloud  (Oxford dictionary) to make the noise any louder than it already is.

Really, I choose rock climbing instead.

My rock has always been there and today, through the Bible app's verse of the day,

I was reminded that it still remains.

Since March, I've been praying the blanket prayer of trust in God over my marriage, finances, jobs, kids, and future.  Now, I see that prayer as rock climbing.

Sometimes, my past self amazes my present self-  this is one of those moments.

I found my Rock at the beginning of this pandemic- now I'm ready to climb and cling to it for the sake of my life and the lives of those around me.

When I rock climb, I trust.

When I'm silent, well, that's the only time I'm brave enough to climb.

My words and the noise of the world can be a mini- jail cell  at times.

No rock climbing there.

So, even though I have more unanswered questions than solutions; more mess than organization, and more responsibilities than time-  I will not waiver in my pursuit to keep on climbing.

Today, I celebrate where rock climbing has taken me.

1.   I have a (day early) three week old and we survived our first week home alone together.  This is what my virtual classroom looks like on maternity leave.

This is what I do with my time. Hold and nurse the baby- and I do it without guilt.

2.  I finished all my course work for my first two doctorate courses and am passing.

3.  I started a new journal on my phone because too much is happening everyday that I can't control. 

When I feel anxious about something, I add it to the list- and keep on climbing.

4.  Lastly, my book returned for a finale round of editing before it goes for a Quality Review.  I've already seen personal growth from the last edit- so I'm excited to see where the Lord takes me with this round.

Rock climbing and being silent-

Well, together, they are my remedy for survival and my contribution to this world.

I can't change much going on and so my words won't always help.

All I have is faith in Jesus Christ.

So, the most logical thing for me to do is trust God is still in control.

Thanks for reading! Enjoy your weekend!

Love. Always,

Crystal